Christmas Morning

The clouds were BEAUTIFUL

SMH.. This is sad

I was at largo metro station one morning

and came across this...

You see that right.. u lookin at the same thing

I'm lookin at right... PECSC (Is that what im seein?)

FOR REAL??

Is the PG County Public School System to

blame for this.. MAN IDK

i'm pretty sure it was just plain stupidity

SMH!!!!

Blessed

The Lord is doing some things man..

Like fareal, putting me in places

and setting up my future.

Let me just tell yall, Prayer works.

But make sure u putting in work also.

Now just to let yall know Y i am so happy

I was just made one of KAS' Assistants

no longer an intern/stylist..

I am Ecstatic.

A great future is ahead, and i just thank the Lord

www.Kascollectioninc.com (peep the website)

The Audacity

Now, can any one tell me if

this has ever happened to you..

As you all know ( well my friends)

I work at Up Against The Wall..

Now on this particular day at work, I was having a

conversation with one of my managers.

I cant remember what it was exactly that led

to what I am about to tell you next, but he says

"Tamika, when are you going to change your style"

so i say what do you mean?

and he's like "That aint you for real. are you afrocentric"

So i laugh at him, and i say no im not afrocentric

and he replies wit "then y do you have a bush"

LMBOOOO!!!!

So i let him know that i have decided not to chemically

proccess my hair any longer, this is my hair at

it's natural state and this is how I was born.

He really didnt have much to say after that

But really, the audacity of such a comment

"when are you going to change your style"

"why do you have a bush"

lol

My question to him is, Do you want me to look like

everyone else?

Lol I get made fun of at work because i choose not

to fit the mold of an UATW girl lol. Its cool, I'm me and I am happy with that.

URBAN OUTFITTERS IS BETTER!

Sample King

So, I was talking to my friend Martin

and he sends me this link..

http://www.celebully.com/wow-kanye-west-exposed-p1566.html

and under the video it said...

"If you think you’ve heard it before…You Probably have. Kanye exposed as possibly the biggest Swagga Jacka of em all."

I wouldnt totally agree with that because he is a producer,

and that is what they do.

Personally, I think what he did with these old songs were

quite brillant.

But who do you think is better?

Kanye or Ryan Leslie lol

Chain Reaction ~By Xavia Nicole Johnson

Yea, I know its long but its great,

My girl Zay has Skills

PLEASE READ.. Tell me what you think so i can tell her

lol

It's definitely true what they say....one's actions affect more than just that person. I know cause I was sittin here distressed....and it was all from a tangled web of wishes and prayers and anxious cries for help and reassurance that hurt will never be another feeling to creep inside my body and turn into a release of anger or bitterness. Anger or bitterness because that person did this to him and made him do that to her and her to him and so on and so on until that her was me and that him was whoever I made it out to be. Scorpio Blues said it best when she challenged and tested every woman 2 detest bein a resurrection of second guessin but it's so much unecessary stress weighing on my chest. I think nobody knows exactly how I feel cause if they did they'd help look for the antidote to help me heal. Instead, that bastard gave me a vaccine so pain is still flowing thru my veins and telling me that it's gonna take longer than a lifetime...so much later than soon for me to be immune to disappointments and let downs. So how do I fight it? How do allow myself to forget those feelings of regret? How do I dismiss that simple kiss that lead to me more than desperately needing an outlet to keep 4rm fearing treachery? One too many betrayals of trust and my heart is all messed up. I vowed neva to blame him again for the time I lost love for myself. Cuz if I can't love myself I shud prolly cancel Christmas on truly loving somebody else. Fact is I do love me and I KNOW that I love the new he that has been placed within. And this he? oh....He's got my heart on lock and he also possesses the key. But I did a not so good deed....I made a spare. Or more like a whole different pair...just in case I'm the victim of that same treachery. Then I can change the lock, protect myself, and allow my heart to skip to a different beat...if need be. And he says, "Go ahead and admit it. You don't trust me." Never will I ever say such a thing. For 'tis NOT true. It's just that...that person did that to him and made him do that to her and so on and so on until that her was me and that him just so happened to be you. But I'm at war and I need u 2 be a soldier and fight beside me. Be my right hand man and reassure me that I can. And I will. I will love u wholeheartedly and allow the walls of my fort to fall down undoubtedly. Help me know that when u do that one thing u don't mean it like he meant it. Remind me that ur so sure that I have no reason to be insecure. I'm not sayin turn to me every five minutes and be like, "Ur the only one for me aight?". Maybe just text me before I text u and say, "How is your day?". Randomly hug me and whisper that I'm beautiful cause for all my fragile heart knows, u could be full of disgust. Don't feed in to every girl wanting to be ur friend. Cause chicks so scandalous. They plot on what another one's got. And I can't take any other girl coming in and trying to be your world. Lemme know that I'm not in this alone. Be a little portion of my backbone...until I'm strong enuff 2 go on my own. And it'll pay off...I promise. I'll dispose of that other set of keys I chose and be all that u need of me and more. I promise to just live no matter how hard another made it to forgive. I won't think too much or use u as the crutch that holds up my emotions or devotions cause my commitment to u...I did that one on my own ;-) And I know..it's all up to me ultimately to allow myself to experience freedom. Look deep down within my self and shout that I'm coming out! I won't let another thought develop a chimerical idea of betrayal causing me to be hysterical or insane. I'm not afraid to love again and I won't let my past jeopardize my obtaining of the prize....which is you. Cause I have no right to make u pay for what some other suckers do. So screw what she did to him that made him do that to me. Your love and loyalty will set me free.

I LOVE

OK so i think I am obsessed with boots

If i could wear them all year round

You best believe I would.

Skinnies, a white tee, cardigan, boots, my jewelery, and rock my fro

Yea... I love it lol

thats me pretty simplistic

250 dollars for these lol.. geesh, thats frye for you

These are so my next purchase

And then These lol

Oh and say these arent the best high waisted jeans ever

(i want them and i wish i knew where she got them from)

thanks for that link sandra lol

www.hoyfashion.co.uk

Friends

I am happy that I have aquired

new (well not technically new lol) ones.

Nothin but love and support in this triangle lol

I love yall

~I might be like a week late on this topic but so what lol

Nice talk this evening ladies

Now, on to the not so lovely side of things.

I really feel like I am starting to grow

apart from a particular someone.

I have felt this for sometime now

but really dont want to acknowledge the fact.

I know

we are indeed two different ppl. But i feel like your a

party pooper (to a certain extent) .. I still love you much though, and

you are indeed a wonderful person..

But I am living and i feel like your

a little stuck sometimes.